Well, it had to be said …

Last night I went on IM to find a local friend and ask him a question. I rarely get on IM because of the HNGs that hit me up. Well, my friend wasn’t around, but Chris was … the one who was asking about the hair only and never about me. Been about 3 weeks I think since it ended. I was surprised to hear from him as he wasn’t even on my buddies list. But, we did a little normal chatting — “hi, how are you?” type stuff.

He then said he missed me. I reminded him of why it ended and he did apologize and later said he felt like a jerk over it. Good. Then he told me he was still interested in me and I was leery and should have gone with my instincts.

I was gone for a minute so he asked if I were busy and I said I was checking website stats, so he asked what that was, saying he wanted to know all about me and my job (previously he’d never, ever asked). So, I told him about Hairy Chat without mentioning the URL, just what it was about, and how good I felt when I could help women, and he asked for more info, and I gave it to him. I mentioned men who were finally able to discuss their feelings about hairy women and feel normal.

He then said, “I wuvvv you.” *shudder*

I then said I had men who loved women from those with full beards to those with full bushes. He said he didn’t like women with beards, so with trepidation I mentioned that many women had facial hair. He basically said that kind of woman wasn’t for him.

*bzzzzt* wrong answer.

I can’t fault him for this, it’s personal choice. I won’t say he’s shallow. Some men like facial hair and some don’t. Some women like men with facial hair, or who are going bald, and some don’t. It’s just personal preference, as I said.

So … I said, “I have some and am used to being rejected over it, so have a nice day” and just signed off and that was it. I didn’t go into my laser treatments, I just didn’t feel like justifying my life to him to try to gain acceptance, ya know?

He’s not into it. I’m not going to try to change his mind as it’s not worth the heartache. I should have gone with my instincts and just ignored his IM. It bummed me out a little but I think at this point I’m just so used to it, it’s not phasing me much anymore.

I’m just so ambivalent toward men lately.

I’m noticing I nap more lately, but it could be over my not sleeping well at night. I used to nap for 1.5 hours, no matter what, it was always an hour and a half. A few weeks ago it was 2.5 hours, then 3.5 hours! Today I’d say I slept for about 3 hours. I’m not sure if it’s lack of sleep at night or just my being so old. And I’m not groggy when I get up after sleeping so long! I could have slept longer, but I fell asleep before putting on the central a/c and it was getting warm. We’re in the middle of a very hot spell.

I did find the obscure auto part I needed, just have to wait for someone to ship it to me. Now I’m after not-so obscure parts that are mostly cosmetic. My ‘bird goes in this week to have the new gears put in plus they are doing a little work elsewhere. I won’t miss her, though, since it will be close to 90 and on days like that I’m home working and not out in the humidity and heat. I need to get into my closet later tonight or tomorrow and pull out m summer shirts and my shorts. Summer sure crept up on us fast.

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