Still not sure why, probably a combination of everything going on in my life right now. A small part of me is hurt that John didn’t contact me again, if I’m honest with myself. Brian probably had to work today, but an email would have been nice. Hell, a hug this morning would have been nice!

I think I realized why I stopped posting on my own military site — no one to flirt with. The one guy who really talked to me out there has left (deployed for a while) so there is no one to pay attention to me. Sad, isn’t it? I realized it when I posted — against my better judgment — and had fun, because someone was paying attention to ME. Wonder how many other women would be honest enough to admit that? Oh sure, I’m pissed at how judgmental the people there can be, after the board pretty much attacked me for being so open minded. But, I’d rather be open minded than walk around like I have a stick up my ass on every subject.

Debating whether to call about the laser treatments — the phone number is right here on my desk. Do I go for something that can potentially be very embarassing (the hair has to grow out for them to remove it, which I can’t do in reality) or do I go for something that could potentially change my entire life?

C’mon, all of you who email me after I post here, have the gonads to register and post yourself. You can grab a tossaway email account (Yahoo or Hotmail) if you’re worried about confidentiality. But sheesh, eventually people are going to tire of hearing my rambing thoughts.

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