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Soul Searching

20 July 2007 posted in Fat Acceptance, Life In General, Pam Rants RSS 2.0.

Doing a lot of soul searching this week and over the past few weeks actually which may explain my inability to sleep as much as I’d like to. Lots on my mind, lots of decisions to make.

Lydia forced me to email Bill today so we’ll see if he responds.

Had my laser appointment last night but an hour before they cancelled — again. I was pissed off as I had been having a great phone conversation I had to cut short to finish up some work and grab some fruit for dinner before my appt, but then the phone rang and I just knew. This is probably the 5th time they’ve cancelled at the last minute.

Meeting Chip for coffee next week but only as friends, we’ve been friends for a while now from a website and he lives pretty close to me. Matt hasn’t been emailing me so I think he’s a lost cause. Talked to John and there was no connection there at all as he was a little too immature for me and too full of himself. Hopefully Bill will email … I sound pathetic.

Any plans for this weekend? Tomorrow I go check out that 1963 Ford Falcon but otherwise, it’s just working on that damned website. I’m probably 40% done but if things go well it will be done within a week.

Oh well, off to research steering boxes on A-bodies before I shower!

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5 Responses to “Soul Searching”

2269. summer 20 July 2007 at 5:15 pm

I “forced” you to email him? lol…thought it was just a suggestion.

I’m off to my see my parents again this weekend. I try to go about every 3 weeks or so - Mom needs one of us home as often as we can make it so she can get a rest from Dad. The demintia has him acting like a 5 year old & he can’t stand for her to be out of his sight. She pretty much has to watch him 24/7 & none of us kids live very close (it’s a 4 hour drive for me)…Wish she would have agreed to move down near me back when Dad wanted to. He wanted a place near the beach but she didn’t want to leave her friends & I’m sure just the thought of moving must have been too much to bear - they have so much stuff!! Anyway, we go and drive Dad arouind town to places he used to like to go while Mom gets some time to do what she wants, so everybody wins.

2270. pam 20 July 2007 at 5:22 pm

YOU MADE ME!! (If he responds I’ll send you a PM plus tell you about my coffee with Chip on Monday)

I spent some time with my parents today and what surprised me was how easily dad went down the stairs. He now thinks the doctor said he can drive — mom says the doctor said no — so now I have to worry about him taking the keys and actually driving. Imagine an accident with him and the oxygen ……… I mean, I know he’s been in the house for a year and doesn’t get to go out much, and he wants to drive, but it could be deadly.

Mom has the nurse coming in 4 times a week to give her a break plus a home health aide as well. Your mom must be so sick of the 24/7 care she has to give as I know it stresses you out.

My dad likes when mom isn’t around. He can sneak …… 2 weeks ago he called his favorite Italian restaurant, ordered spaghetti. and paid $17 for a cab to go get it and bring it to him. That spaghetti sauce has more sodium in one serving than he should have in an entire week. He gained 9 lbs overnight from it ….. now imagine him being able to drive to the restaurant, the bakery, the deli … he’ll be back in the hospital in no time.

Anyway, have a fun weekend — godnose you need a break!

2271. summer 20 July 2007 at 8:32 pm

Yikes, the driving thing was bad with dad, too. He’d sneak when mom was taking a nap, and he crosses the centerline & runs red lights…he says it’s OK because nobody else is on the road. We tried to get him to understand that if he hits someone, they could sue & take everything they have, as the doctor says he should’t drive either. Mom finally had to threaten to divorce him if he didn’t quit.

Then he decided he’s doing OK & didn’t need to take his meds anymore - she had to threaten him with divorce again to make him keep taking them.

When we kids go home, he complains to us that mom used to be the sweetest woman he ever knew & now she’s mean and yells at him. He doesn’t realize she HAS to yell since he won’t wear his hearing aids…

I think mom needs to get some help come in but isn’t sure how to introduce a new person into his life without getting him confused. When we were at the beach earlier this year, my uncle was staying with us & when he left, dad said that man was so nice & he enjoyed walking with him on the beach every day…he doesn’t really seem to remember him at all.

2273. pam 21 July 2007 at 5:44 am

Oh, dad has the hearing aid thing too … just spend another $6k on new ones (does she ever stop bitching about it??) and he still has trouble hearing. I think he tunes her out … I know I used to!

My father plans to drive, mom threatens to put him in a home, he still says he’ll drive and she can’t be there 24/7 to babysit. So she threatens to call the doctor and have his license pulled and I tell her he’ll still drive. I told him yesterday he better not have an accident and get sued and lose MY inheritance.

2276. tmw 21 July 2007 at 9:33 am

My dad has a hearing aid and he doesn’t use it.
After I speak to both of them and walk away. My dad would ask my mom what I said.