I really hate holidays and have such a hard time with them. Oh, I had fun yesterday but came home and something happened that really threw me and has me pretty weepy. It’s a culmination of a few bad weeks, I think. I clicked the wrong icon on another computer and AIM opened up. Been avoiding AIM so I don’t end up talking to gangsta boy. When I looked over, I saw a message from “ima be all ova u”. Feeling alone, I decided to talk to him. It’s not like my guy has been paying me much attention, and anyone who knows me knows I need a lot of attention from a guy. We did the normal chit chat, then he asked about my love life,and I told him I hadn’t met anyone but was just talking to someone who lived very far away. At that point I probably should have just clicked out but again, needing to feel needed but was feeling neglected, so decided to chat with him.

He really does like hairy women, and he isn’t asking for pics which just really makes me lose interest, and he’s very close, but he’s also very young, very immature, and I know he only wants one thing. I did ask him if he really liked fat women and he said “i like all women” and then told me their size didn’t matter. DANGER ZONE. That is man speak for “I’ll fuck anything that breathes and has a vagina.” No thank you. I’d rather be alone and do myself than be with someone like that.

My guy says he really does love bigger women plus loves hairy women, and is so much more mature and much brighter, but that distance thing is a real issue as is the lack of attention and contact. I want someone who loves my body and shows it, not someone who will tolerate it.

So, I had trouble falling asleep, though had taken a pill as I haven’t slept well in a long time, plus had the stiff neck from hell. Woke up a few times but kept rolling over and going back to sleep … looked at the clock and it was 9:40!! I haven’t slept that late in years! Now I’m scrambling to catch up on my websites, then have some paperwork to do, then some stuff around the house. With the rain I won’t be cruising, could not even take the Firebird with us yesterday as I knew it was going to rain, and it did.

I think I’ve done enough on Hairy Video Reviews to announce it here, though am adding a bit more onto it later. I’m thinking I’ll have the bisexual site done by tonight if I don’t take a nap lol. I’m still tired but am feeling, I don’t know … unsettled … maybe too much on my mind.

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