Do I or don’t I?

Life can be confusing at times, huh? For me, sex and love go together. I can’t have sex without love or at least deep feelings toward someone. So now I have this chance to be with someone who seemingly wants me. We haven’t met in person, we’ve just emailed and talked on the phone. He’s young enough that it would curl your hair if I told you his age … but he likes hairy women. He likes all women, actually, because he’s at that age that sex is meaningless and he just wants a warm hole for a while. I’m not stupid :)

Now … he does turn me on but … do I really want to have some anonymous sex just to have sex? Will I be able to face myself in the mirror the next day?

Having written it down, I’ve made my decision … I can’t do it. It’s just not me and will leave me empty. I’ll meet him for coffee but that’s it.

There is someone else who likes hairy women but he’s about an hour or so away, and I know that never works out, so am hesitant. He’s also not into a lot of the things I’m into, but I think I could get around that. Not sure if he’s into fat chicks as we haven’t talked that far into things. At least with him I won’t be told I’m disgusting for not shaving my pits or anything else.

Busy day without enough hours in the day to do all I wanted to do. Hopefully tonight I can get some stuff out of the way that needs to be out of the way finally.

2 Responses to “Do I or don’t I?”

  • 2894. Yank Bird 21 September 2007 at 7:40 am

    Its hard to say Yes do it or No Dont do it. At the end of the day its definitely gotta be your choice.

    I know how you feel, Ive been there. Wanting what I want and not finding it so you think well at least sexually I could get it from this person. In my experience the sex is 1/10th of what you imagine it to be and then you end up thinking why the hell did I do it.

    I dont think theres anything wrong though if you find someone who sexually fulfills you no strings attached. Why there always seems to be a double standard between men and women always confuses me.

    I think our parents and society get it in our head we should be having kids, look for love and marriage and relationships and with men its the opposite. Parents think they shouldn’t settle down for a long while and should experience life first.

    I remember looking for “The One” since I was like 12. Which is quite stupid really. I stuck out alot of doomed and disastrous relationships for fear of being alone.

    As long as you do what makes you happy Pam than I think thats great!

    Hugz by the way I have been so busy lately no time for myself but all is really really good over here at the moment. Catch up soon with everyone!

  • 2895. pam 21 September 2007 at 5:04 pm

    I’ve missed you!!!

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