Yep, a coffee date with Chuck. He’s going to drive up to meet me tomorrow. I just wish it weren’t going to be 88 degrees and very humid, but the place I have in mind (same place I met those 2 last week) is air conditioned and very cool. I’m already nervous as I haven’t seen a photo of him, and of course he’s never seen my photo. He says looks don’t matter but that’s generally bullshit when a guy says it.

He’s not much of a talker on the phone, and not much of a talker in email, so I hope to hell he’s a talker in person or it’s not going to go too well.

He’s the first one I met with any romantic inclination in what, 3 years? So yeah, I’m already very nervous!

Didn’t sleep much due to nervousness and excitement, but he’s already sent a few emails saying how much he’s looking forward to this, so hopefully he won’t cancel. The rain is putting a damper on things so it better clear up!

I met this one from a dating site that I only joined 2 weeks ago, and the only one who had emailed me there was someone who I know is reading this right now!

So, naturally, all my insecurities are kicking in big time right now but I’m thinking good positive thoughts.

Cross your fingers for me!

So, John said he’d call and didn’t, and I bought the TV! Got a 19″ Sharp flat screen HDTV at an incredible price. It’s all hooked up but I need to get the HD cable box which I’ll order this week.

Men wise, things are definitely looking up. Since John is too busy, I’m moving on and have 2 real good prospects. Mike lives in RI but is an hour away. Goatee/mustache and very muscular but we’ve never talked about my being hairy. Chuck lives an hour away from me as well, very muscular and last night on the phone I told him I didn’t shave my pits. He wasn’t disgusted but wasn’t turned on either, but I’d rather have that than someone who wants me to change who I am and remove the hair, which I simply won’t do.

I’m thinking Chuck and I will meet some time this week and if I had my way it would be tomorrow!

Meeting Chip and “the kid” gave me a huge boost of confidence, plus I’m coming to find out Chip is definitely interested in me sexually, but there is no attraction on my part at all, sad to say. Emotionally he seems to have what I want, that’s all I’ll say.

Quiet weekend but hot as hell. And, it looks like this heat and humidity will be here until next weekend. Today is a local car show that I really, REALLY wanted to go to, but it’s just too damned hot to go. I’ll be glad if I can get just to the 2 nationals this year.

I keep reading personal ads where the guys say they are tired of women playing games. Half the time I’m not even sure what they mean or what types of game are being played. I keep reading they want to meet someone who is “normal” and not nuts, and it seems to me, from reading these ads, that the majority of people meeting on dating sites are a bit, err, psychologically unstable.

Chip emailed and shocked the hell out of me as he told me he ,well, wants me. I got NO sexual vibe from him at all when we met so this came out of left field. He’s a really nice sweet guy but definitely not my type and I felt no attraction at all.

John called but very briefly and cancelled our coffee meeting for tomorrow. I just have this feeling …. it will be a long time until we meet, if we ever do. I could be wrong … I know he’s into me sexually, almost too much so … which may not make sense, but the fact he seemingly wants me so badly will put a LOT of pressure on me if and when we meet, and the last thing I need is sexual pressure from some guy.

Since he blew me off for tomorrow, I think I’ll finally go and buy that TV since the one in my office is acting up. I bought one but returned it and have been putting off buying another.

Hairy site is done … just waiting for a graphic from my designer and then I’ll post it here for y’all to critique.

Had my laser appointment tonight and it wasn’t painful, almost didn’t even feel it. Let’s hope it works — 80% is gone, 20% to go!

Almost done with the overhaul of the website. Now I’m just doing last-minute stuff, but tomorrow I won’t be around as I have some stuff to do, so tomorrow night I should finish it up.

Had a dream last night about Bill. I don’t know why I just can’t get him off of my mind. Chip did send a nice email and let me know that he finds me attractive and thinks I’m wrong about my looks, but I totally disagree with him. Not like I can argue, as he’s entitled to his opinion.

John called but briefly, and cancelled our meeting tomorrow. So much for that.

Nothing from the kid I met so I don’t know what to think. It’s not like there was any romance there or anything, sheesh.

I’m just frustrated tonight.

After talking to John last night, I felt we made a connection but, of course, being insecure, I wasn’t positive he’d call again. I did email him and got no response, so was a lot leery today that I’d not hear from him again. I wasn’t beating myself up yet! But, he called about an hour ago and we had a great conversation and we’re definitely in synch on a lot of issues.

So, I’m feeling pretty happy yet keeping it in stride, as I know we may meet and he may not be interested after that. It’s happened before so I won’t get my hopes up too high. He does like BBWs so I know I won’t have to deal with rude comments about my weight as I’ve had to do in past relationships. He’s not into hairy women but didn’t seem to have an issue with me being hairy, but we’ll see about that.

I did get feedback from Chip and he said I had honest eyes, nice full lips and he wants to get together again for coffee or dinner. I said yes as I enjoyed talking to him without any sexual pressure. I knew I wasn’t trying to impress him (not that I would), I knew I was just talking to a friend and nothing more. The kid, as I call him (Timothy) didn’t email me or comment or anything, so I have no clue where his head is at. I still don’t even know why I met him, honestly, other than I just felt bad over something he had said in his profile.

Still working on the overhaul of the site which I hope to have done in 2 days, then I, uhm, willhaveafewnewsites. If I say it fast maybe Summer won’t hurt me

I did survive my coffee meetings today. I actually had fun. Chip showed up on time and looked exactly like his photo and, of course, he had no clue what I’d look like but he knew it was me. We chatted for quite a while just like old friends. Timothy showed up 30 minutes early and saw me with Chip and asked if I brought along a bodyguard! Chip said I looked 35 which was a huge ego boost and made me feel good, but I’m sure I’ll know what each thought of me later on when they email.

I did it, I did it with confidence, and I’m glad it’s behind me. But it helped me gain some confidence to meet John.

Uhm, yeah, a new guy. I’m meeting him on Friday for coffee. I only began corresponding with him this weekend but we spoke on the phone today and I felt a good connection. I was pretty blunt and open and told him I didn’t remove any body hair and he said he was fine with it. I told him I didn’t shave my pits and again, he seemed fine with it, mentioned he was very, very hairy — as if that’s a problem?!?! He’s in the service so no facial hair!

We seem to want the same thing and he seemed to understand my needs and wants and he mirrors it. I told him I’d meet him for coffee but nothing else, I needed to date someone for a bit before getting involved and he seemed ok with that, too.

He is about 30 minutes away and while I wish he were closer, I can live with that. So, we’ll talk tomorrow and set up a definite plan for Friday.

EEEK! No, seriously, I am. At 2 PM I’m meeting Chip for coffee. He and I became email buddies a while back and today we spoke on the phone for the first time. He’s into classic cars (of course) and lives one town over from me.

At 4 PM I’m meeting Timothy for coffee — at the same place — but he’s not into cars and we did talk tonight for the first time.

One is my age, one is much younger. Neither is a romance thing, but I need to do this for my confidence. I haven’t met anyone since that guy last summer, the one with the really bad teeth, whose name I can’t remember.

As for Bill — he did email me with an apology on Saturday and I responded but nothing today. Big surprise there. But there is another guy who has expressed a little interest and he’s local and about as close to a living fantasy of mine as you can get! 6′3″, 260 lbs of muscle, wow. Goatee, of course. We’ll see what happens when/if we talk. But I still want to meet Bill …. I’m a real masochist, aren’t I?

Then there is this guy Brian who I met about 3 years ago for coffee who I keep in touch with now and then. Today he told me he “personally thought very highly of your looks” when I was complaining about guys wanting pretty women. He’s a nice guy but married. He’s the only one I’ve ever met from a dating site who was honest with me. Told me upfront he was married, I told him I don’t cross that line but he still wanted to meet for coffee, and I think we spent 3 hours talking that day. We keep meaning to do it again but one of us is always busy. It’s flattering that’s still interested, though.

Still redoing that website … maybe 60% done and I’m taking most of tomorrow off so I’m hoping to have it done by Friday at the latest.

Once that’s done I can segue to the car site and then it’s just maintenance on the others but no redoing anything major for a while. Waaaaaay too stressful!

So, cross your fingers for me that tomorrow goes well. Again, no romance in the works but it’s still nerve-wracking meeting people

What can I say, I’m a masochist. I just said, “wow, you must be really busy” and we’ll see if he responds. I really didn’t want to but really, Summer made me! Ok, well her suggestion made me!

Hot day and I had a ton of errands to run and it seemed like I’d never get home. I was literally getting undressed as I opened my door and was naked and in the shower within 6 minutes of walking in the door. I just needed to cool off!

I went into Wal-Mart and working one register was a Latina with the thickest mustache I think I’ve ever seen on a female. She had dark skin but a very dark, noticeable mustache. I immediately put on my sunglasses so I could look without being obvious and she had no forearm hair I could see, normal brows and no other facial hair that I could discern. I wanted to tell her I was proud of her for not removing it!

So, I’m thinking of coloring my underarm hair. No, seriously. If you visit Hairy Chat you know that one of the regular female posters, Hairygal63, colored hers bright pink. She also colored her kitty bright pink and those photos are on the site.

So, even though no one will see them but me, I’m seriously thinking of doing it, and will go to the store on Monday to purchase the color kit. Hot pink pits sounds …. exciting!

Mine was busy. I’m redoing a site that’s been up for years, and it will take me at least a solid week of working on it to get it done, but it will be worth it in the end.

No word from Bill so I’ve given up on him and moved on, but there is John … he works a lot, too, but still manages to hit me up and hopefully will call tonight. And there is still Matt … but I’m still not ready to meet either of them. But, I was ready to meet Bill but I’m not going to chase him.

Am looking at a 1966 Dodge Coronet this week. I got about 3 dozen photos today and the underbody looks good. There is some serious bad bondo work on the doors but I’d rather have door rust than floor rust. 318 engine, power steering and the interior is nice. I’m waiting for some trunk pan pics. The price is very cheap but we’ll see. It will need some body work but that can be a winter project, since I’m still having my other car done. Engine is in but not fired up yet. Custom exhaust went on but it wasn’t tight enough so it’s going back. Got the brake booster, master cylinder and proportional thingie. I hope it only takes another month since I have a bit of interior work to do on it but want to drive the damned thing already.

No regrets over passing on the Firebird. The more I pictured the frame rail bubbles, the holes drilled in weird places and the hacked dashboard, the better I felt about my decision. I have a friend in Indiana looking for a solid car for me.

It’s funny, but my Firebird guy has been emailing me all weekend trying to make me feel better but I think I’ve convinced him I’m not broken-hearted over this. He was the first person I texted as I drove home to tell him “no go.”

Oh well. If not these cars, it will be something else. I’m always looking!

Bullshit? You bet it is! I was corresponding with this guy who answered one of my personal ads where I say I’m a natural woman. He asked if that meant I didn’t shave below the waist, and I told him I removed no body hair. He replied he preferred smooth legs on women plus would have an issue with hygiene. I nearly told him to GFY but just told him I don’t change for anyone and wished him good luck in the future.

MORON.

So, now there is John. He’s a firefighter a few towns over, younger than me (surprised?) and seems to be a gentleman. Hopefully we’ll chat tonight or tomorrow and see if we can meet for coffee. No word from Bill …. since Saturday morning. I’ve pretty much given up on him. I’m sure I’ll wake up to an email frmo him, telling me he had to work, blah blah blah and will say he wants to meet this week but he may have to work. While he seemed perfect, he can’t even scrounge up the time to meet me, so he’ll never have time for a relationship. I need a lot of attention, and admit it right up front. 2 emails a week won’t cut it with me. So, we’ll see what happens with John.

Anyone know anything about proportioning valves? I need to know if I need one and don’t want to call my restoration shop and ask …

Somewhat humid today but not that bad, high hit around 79 but they say much warmer tomorrow. I’ve got some errands to run in the morning, then need a lobster salad roll for lunch (I have them about twice a week in the summer; I’m addicted) and then hopefully can come home and work where it’s nice and cool.

Some good conversations going on over at Hairy Chat and Hairy Space. With the latter, there are some things to be fixed — again — as my programmer overwrote some files. So, you can’t comment on photos yet … but that should be restored either tonight or tomorrow.

The summer humidity is here, and I hate it. I swear I sweated off at least 4 lbs today when driving to and from destinations. Not much I can do about it though, right?

Saw a gorgeous bright red 1965 Mustang coupe today, in a horrible neighborhood, totally run down, in back of a house that looked like no one has mowed or painted or cleaned it since the early 1900’s! Ugh, one of those horrid houses but in the back, this absolutely gleaming Mustang. I pulled over to check it out but didn’t want to walk into the yard in case they had Cujo around.

Yesterday I saw a 1966 Mustang in black with a white stripe along the side. I thought it was a California Special or High Country Special but it went by me pretty quickly and I wasn’t really paying all that much attention.

I miss Superman, and I think only Lydia will know what I mean.

My programmer just fixed a major boo-boo on Hairy Space but it’s nothing you’d have noticed, but I sure as hell did! Yow. I’ll be so glad when this is all done, then I can do the next site (don’t yell, Summer!).

Did hear from my friend Bill but he had to work today. I jokingly asked if we’d meet by Christmas and he said he had the day off, but I reminded him he’d be with family. I seriously doubt we’ll ever meet. He works 2 jobs including overtime and even if I were to meet him some night after work, he’d never have the time to devote to a relationship. It’s really a shame but it’s not my fault. He’s just never able to meet.

I was supposed to meet someone last night as a casual thing at a car show but it rained so I never went. Funny thing was I wanted to go to the Toyota dealership and get my truck washed but then I heard we were having a storm, and hell, we did. For about 20 minutes we had thunder and lightning, 40 mph winds, and torrential rain. Then all of a sudden it was sunny again. Gotta love summer weather, huh?

I had a date to meet Bill after all this time, but he emailed to say he had to work, then called to apologize. I’m supposed to hear from him tonight to see if we can meet tomorrow but he probably will have to work — he always has to work Saturday, so my hopes aren’t up.

Meanwhile, I was supposed to have coffee with Jack tonight but we had to cancel, so it’s on tomorrow for 11. Spent about an hour talking to him tonight and am looking forward to having coffee — yes, just coffee — with him tomorrow.

Neither is a “hair lover” but Bill prefers hairier women, so we’ll see what happens and with whom.

I was bummed out when Bill only emailed and appreciated the fact he called this afternoon. I hoped he’d call tonight but alas, no call, so I’ll wake up to an email.

I can now report that Hairy Space has been totally updated and upgraded. It appears all errors have been fixed, and some of the new features include you can now leave a comment on the photos you view.

I’m still working on the blog comment modification .. have patience

Happy holiday to all in the USA!

My big meet and greet was last night and I’m glad it’s over as it was tiring meeting 6 new people. All but one showed up, 3 showed up drunk and kept drinking all night. They got VERY touch-feely and I swear the girlfriend kissed and hugged me more than her boyfriend, whom I am good friends with! I met some really cool people and can’t wait for the next one.

Meanwhile, I have a date. The guy I’ve been wanting to meet, Bill, and I are supposed Friday night. If he has to work, we’ll do it Saturday. He called today for the first time and the conversation went well, so I’m really looking foward to meeting up with him and see how it goes. I also have a ladies’ night out so will probably leave early to meet up with him as I don’t know if he’ll want to meet up with 4 other women ….

Staying home working today. I was invited out to watch fireworks with friends but you know, I hate being a 3rd wheel and being alone when everyone else seemingly has someone with them. I’d rather stay home and watch it on TV without a crowd around me.

Updating some hairy sites today but nothing new coming out - aren’t you proud of me, Summer?! I haven’t put up a new hairy site in 2 months! I do have one coming out on classic cars but you can yell at me just a little

I’m meeting my “boytoy” tomorrow after he gets out of work. Before that, though, I have a meet and greet with 12 people, half of whom I’ve never met before. He’ll show up there so it won’t be one-on-one but I’m still nervous as all out. We’ve never talked about body hair but I decided to wait and see … if the connection we have on the phone and online is the same in person, then we can have that all-important hair talk.

Meanwhile, the guy who cancelled out on the cup of coffee emailed again and wants to have coffee, and there is a doctor who loves EXTREMELY hairy women who wants to meet …. plus at this meet and greet a friend (whom I’ve never met) is bringing HIS friend he wants to fix me up with! All these men, right?

While I really like the boytoy, I have no illusions about a long-term anything with him. He’s also making me face my feelings about my attraction to younger men. I never realized how strong it was until he came along, or maybe it’s that he’s a little more mature than most guys his age so I don’t feel like I’m robbing the cradle.

I did come across a women on MySpace who is VERY hairy. She has hair on her chest which is clearly visible in her photos. Then a friend and I were talking about PCOS and it turns out she’s covered with hair, like I am .. and it was really nice to know I’m not alone. She’s married but I don’t know how her husband feels about all the hair, though I’m curious.

I told a friend about a new guy I’d been corresponding with, who is significantly younger than I am. She didn’t rant at me, didn’t make me feel stupid, and just said to go for it if it makes me happy.

An acquaintance told me that he could be my son and asked if I was crazy.

So yes, there is someone new, and he’s probably young enough to be my son in some cultures but age is just a number. We’ve talked for hours and hours and he and I rarely even talk about sex, there is so much more to talk about. So, I’m secure that he’s not just some horny kid looking for some.

The other guy wanted to meet for breakfast but gave me an hours’ notice. Nope, can’t do. I’m hoping maybe tomorrow he’ll want to meet but if not, it’s ok, the other one talks much more and therefore, interests me more. If I can’t talk to you to find out if you’re intelligent or not, it’s going to be hard to get my attention.

Been up working since around 3 am. Had trouble falling asleep and didn’t sleep well, then got up and just could not go back to sleep. Of course, now I’m feeling tired and want to nap but can’t. What’s even weirder was I was SO hungry that I ate breakfast at 4 am. I felt like I hadn’t eaten in weeks and the night before I got up right around 3 and was very, very hungry. I’m definitely not dieting so don’t know why I was so hungry.

I think maybe too much is going on in my life right now. Hopefully this weekend things will change a little if I meet someone for coffee.

Yep, I’m meeting someone for coffee tomorrow. I think he’s the first I’ve met in a few years. There are 2 guys I’m interested in and who are interested in me. This is the one at the bottom of the list, but the one at the top works so much I don’t think we can ever meet for coffee. I’m nervous about meeting this guy as I don’t know a whole lot about him yet, but it’s just coffee and he only has an email address for me, and it’s a tossaway on at that. So, we’ll see how it goes. I can’t stay too long since I have my new desk and shelves being done late in the afternoon.

This desk that’s being broken down has a lot of sentimental value. I remember my parents buying it for me in the late 70’s. It’s prefab but real wood. It’s been to New Hampshire, Boston and more with me, and has survived each move. I absolutely love it, but since I dumped the other one in this office and cleaned things up so much, it’s time to let it go. I’ll have to disconnect this computer but it won’t be a nightmare like last time. This one has less peripherals and I don’t think any extra wires, as it was easy to get underneath and remove things. And, no phone wires to break!

Talked to my mechanic and once he has the bolts and kit, my engine and tranny are going in, then it’s off to a shop for the exhaust system to be built. Yes, built. He uses this guy for all his hot rods and it’s being built to specifications for my car, instead of something out of a box. Later today I’ll research Hurst shifters. He thinks about 3-4 weeks until I get my car back, but it will be too hot most likely to drive it then, so I can work on the interior which only needs a little bit of work.

I’m working on a new dating site for hairy woman lovers. Hairy Space is great, don’t get me wrong, but some people don’t want an entire community and just want a plain old dating site. It will take a while to finish up as I’ve barely begun working on it.

Nothing overly exciting but whoa is all I can say. First there is Bill, someone who lives 15 minutes from me, likes BBWs and hairy women and seems fairly normal. He doesn’t contact me often enough for my happiness and appears to work even more than I do, so I don’t have high hopes. Then there was Douglas who sent me a rude email, I told him off, them he decided he would grow a goatee for me and wants a relationship. Of course he has no vehicle so he’s been wiped off the list. Next was Roger who wasn’t happy when I wouldn’t meet him right away. Now there is Paul who lives 20 minutes away and seems interested, but I just told him I don’t want to meet yet — so am waiting for a return response.

My life is a soap opera at times, I swear!

Heard from a new model who is covered from head to toe with hair. I may not have a photographer out in her area of California, that’s my only issue at this point. That was an issue with another model I probably lost as I had no one to take photos of her and my videographer wasn’t available.

The hot weather apparently is upon us but the nice cool 60 degree weather of last week will sorely be missed. I think I should relocate to San Diego where it’s sunny and 70 all the time and it never snows!

Been so busy with work lately that it’s hard to get everything done. I did some major changes to Pam’s Reviews that you’ll notice soon. I have to manually change more than 1,000 reviews by hand, so it won’t be done in a day or two! I’m also having Hairy Space upgraded tonight or tomorrow and if all goes well, you’ll notice major changes. I’ll have a lot of script changes and design work to do after that.

Not much new on the male front. The one I want is too far away and the ones who want me are too close. I’m getting tired of hearing from guys who just want to get laid. Yeah, I’d like to have good sex for once in my life, but I’m not going to compromise my principles to have it. And if I never have it, it’s ok, as I do pretty well by myself.

Went to a car show this past weekend and met up with some friends and had a good time. Saw some new cars I’d never seen in person including a Charger and a Road Runner. A friend who is into Chevelle’s (her nickname is Chevelle) and her very, very sexy husband showed up and there were 4 Chevelle’s for them to drool over including a 1963 model. Her husband is probably the only male I have ever, ever met in my life who actually looks you in the eye when talking to you and doesn’t judge you on looks.

I saw a weird hot rod Mustang that was just too restomodded for me. Then some guy came over to talk to us, gave us the creeps, then came over again, and horribly insulted me. I laughed it off but on the way home was in tears. It reminded me of the time I was at a Chinese restaurant and for some reason, one waitress did not like me (she’d always gotten a big tip). When I walked in with my boyfriend, she commented to the other waitress (who told me all of this), “here comes fatso.” My boyfriend at the time laughed and thought it was funny. I cried myself to sleep that night.

Anyway, tonight begins the top 20 on So You Think You Can Dance. I haven’t seen anyone who made me gasp yet but maybe tonight when I get to see more of them. Last year Benjy blew me away (and this year his sister is in the top 20).

While it’s not a hairy bush, I leave you with a favorite pic of mine as of today

So, I had another laser appointment tonight. She cranked it up a little higher since I have a few problem spots, but it never hurt and I didn’t hear the snapping noise, which is a good thing. Just glad it’s over.

Did you catch the season finale of The Shield? It was disappointing to me. This season just wasn’t as exciting and the stories are going crazy. Usually the last of the season leaves you on the edge of your seat.

Some nice classic cars on the road today including an old Rolls Royce, a few hot rods, a fox body Mustang GT (what a gorgeous goatee on him!) and a Chevelle/Nova, can’t tell the difference from far away.

Updated Natural Women Blog with lots of new hot images for y’all.

My love life could be picking up. There is a really, REALLY sweet kid who is almost half my age but I love chatting with him, but he doesn’t live close. Then there is a local guy (20 minutes away) who is interested, but he’s already lied to me 4 times that I know of (mostly his age), plus he’s just not giving me enough attention. The young one isn’t so fixated on sex which is amazing for someone his age. But, the good ones are always so far away, it seems. There was an older one who wanted to meet me for coffee tomorrow but he’s disappeared this week for some reason.

Right now I’m watching the auditions for So You Think You Can Dance and I have to admit that the B-Boys are some of my favorite dancers. So inventive and original!

Updated lots of sites recently including the Natural Women Blog and, of course, Hairy Space is continuing to grow and I expect a major update in the next few days.

Warm weather is here so tons of classic car sightings. Saw a 1966 Chevelle numbers-matching, big block fuely for $85k (I don’t think so), tons of Dodge Darts, Camaros, Firebirds, even a Super Bee on the highway. I’m still dealing with my carb issue but it will be resolved in a few weeks. No clue on the pre-bent gas lines but I need to stop in and get really bitchy with them.

Frisky frisky frisky. Ok, damned horny. Been that way for a few days. Today was an unbelievable day. If you’ve been to the Hairy Chat board lately and read some of the newest sex stories, including Up Against The Wall, you’ll know why. That and some good goatees sightings, damn. Just thinking about that story gets my juices flowing again. Damn.

Nothing new on the men front … had a few good prospects but I don’t know, I just don’t seem as interested as I once was. One guy seemed nice but he left me cold. Another seemed promising but didn’t seem to want to get to know ME that well. When I said I wouldn’t meet another the next day for coffee (hey, I’m cautious, shoot me) he blew me off. I’m finding that guys 28-33 are attracting me more and more and it’s bothering me more and more as well. Physically that is what attracts me, yet emotionally I need someone my age or older, particularly a daddy type.

YankBird seems to be MIA so I don’t know why she hasn’t been posting.

Hope you’ll take time this weekend to reflect on the men and women who have served and who are currently serving in our military. These people deserve our utmost respect.

Quiet weekend for me other than being very frisky. Lots of work done and tomorrow I hope to run some errands while everyone is enjoying themselves.

Have a new model but no photographer, can you believe it? It’s a kick in the teeth as she’s very VERY hairy — but my videographer is too busy until September.

Haven’t slept well for days and hope this passes soon as it’s a pain to toss and turn

I never understood what closure really meant until the other day. I don’t want to go into all the details because to me it’s finally in the past, but I received an email (which in itself is odd as they’re filtered from this particular person right to the trash/spam bin) which gave me closure to something in my past. NOW I finally understand what closure is about. I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and felt I could move on. I guess in the future I’ll now understand exactly what closure means to people.

I’m needing to hire someone to work for me once in a while. What you will do is go into hairy paysites with a password I supply, and download photos for me. I’ll tell you what type I need. This takes time, but as a woman who doesn’t really get off seeing hairy women all day long, this job is tedious and boring as hell for me. You will be trusted with a password and will be trusted not to share it. Obviously I want someone who I’m familiar with, so if you’re a customer of mine, or a surfer I know, please feel free to email me to talk about this. It doesn’t pay anything but you get free access to hairy paysites and can download all the photos and videos you want at no cost

American Idol is on tonight, the final 6 perform with 2 being voted off tomorrow. One month of AI left … this season went quickly.

Nice day but about to go visit dad in the hospital. Yes, he’s still there but they think he can go home on Thursday as long as his blood remains stable, but he’s still bleeding internally. His bloodwork revealed he had another heart attack 2 weeks ago, but it must have been very very minor.

Rainy and it will rain again this week. Pretty quiet weekend. Did finally manage to watch Blood Diamond today and while it was good, it’s not a movie I plan to watch again. I saw The Pursuit Of Happyness 2 weeks ago I think and I really liked it and hope to see it again.

Didn’t do enough work this weekend. My laptop seemingly has died. This is the 2nd Dell laptop that died right after the 3-year warranty ran out. First I got these blue screens, and when that happens, all USB peripherals stop working and I have to use the other USB ports. Then the battery was wearing down but the laptop is plugged in 24/7. After 20 minutes of use, it said I began with over an hour and then it was red and dead. Turned it on today and low battery would not let it come on.

Fortunately I bought another laptop in October so plugged it in, and the battery was dead, but let it run for a few hours to charge. I loaded most of the software on it so far but tomorrow hope to finish that up, then back everything up. I’m not sure if I’ll send the laptop back to Dell for repair or just junk it. I hadn’t put in any new programs but did the recent Windows update, but doubt that killed it.

What’s odd is I bought the laptop to replace a new desktop since I planned on getting a new desk, but could not find the desk I wanted, so stuck the laptop in a closet. Last week I found the desk I wanted! My handyman will be coming in next month with a saw to break down my desk and put up shelves, but I’ll keep that desktop since it seems to be working just fine and now I need that laptop to replace the other one!

Got a weird email today, a response to a personal ad I placed about 3 years ago and forgot about. Most I placed were lost as I used an email address I don’t have any longer. Anyway, I go to the site and the guy is too far away, but I figure I’ll browse the men. I can’t believe I recognized a friend of mine there! I also saw a lot of the same guys I see on MySpace and AFF.

Still no nursing home beds available for dad so he’s still in the hospital. This is running my mom so ragged and it’s just really stressing me out.

Redoing one of my sites, don’t hurt me Summer! It was a site I took down after not updating it for a while, and tonight I realized I needed a specific type of site and didn’t want to register a new domain, so went through what I had hanging around and found the perfect site. So, I’ll work on it this week and hopefully it will launch next week.

My Red Sox are surely rocking this year! I can’t remember the last time we won so many from the Yankees. Of course, I can’t believe the Pats picked up that Moss kid as he’s more trouble than he’s worth I think. New England fans never forgive bad behavior.

My laptop is giving me fits. All of a sudden it won’t boot properly and is giving me weird blue screen errors. I used it for 20 minutes after rebooting and the battery was down to 5% power. I don’t USE the battery as it’s plugged in 24/7. One of the USB ports doesn’t seem to want to work after the reboot.

I did buy another laptop late last year that I stuck in a closet as I realized I didn’t need it, so I have a feeling that tomorrow I’ll be finding all the software I need and loading it onto the new laptop and tossing the old one into the attic with the others.

Dad is still in the hospital and will be there several more days as they can’t stabilize him. 20+ units of blood so far. No nursing homes have openings so they can’t put him in one again but maybe something will open up in the next few days.

Took an unexpected nap today for 2 hours, but I haven’t been sleeping that well this week. Lots on my mind and I can’t seem to shut it down at night.

I don’t know if I mentioned I have a new hairy model who will be doing a photo and video shoot in June. She’s the girl-next-door type and if you liked Laurel, you’ll love this one (unnamed as of right now). Massive bush, too!

About to do a little work on Hairy Space as it’s growing every day. My programmer is working on something in the background and I hope he has it finished by tomorrow. I’m a little frustrated at the number of people who haven’t finished their profiles. Also, my profile states not to ask for photos as well as saying I’m a BBW, yet every day someone messages me to ask for photos or tells me their ideal woman is petite. Sheesh. Way to make me feel wanted, ya know?

I detest liars. One of my ex boyfriends lied to me from the beginning to the end, and it made me hate liars even more.

This new guy is interested in me, and I ask if he’s married and he says no. I type his name into Google and gee, I find him easily and he’s posting pics of his “wife” on amateur websites. In fact, one post was made on April 15th 2007!

So, I email him and tell him I’m not interested in married men. Shoo.

Naturally he writes back, claims he’s divorced, it was a white lie just to liven up an amateur forum.

So now I’m in a quandry of whether he truly posted photos of his ex-wife to liven up the site, as he claimed, or if he’s really married and lying to me through his teeth.

Do I really want to take the chance he is really single and see what happens, or do I want to cut it off right here and now before I’m hurt, under the pretext he’s married?

If any type of relationship begins on a lie, how far can it progress? How can you trust anything the liar would say to you in the future?

I didn’t feel one bit of pain! It was painless and almost relaxing. The worst part was they suggested I purchase a serum to soothe my skin and the small 2 oz bottle was fifty bucks! It’s in a glass bottle, too, so I don’t want to drop that sucker!! I’m going to buy a piece of silicone and glue it to the bottle so if I drop it, it won’t shatter.

New guy who said he was single but I don’t think he is — now says he is. I’m supposed to believe him, but after having had a relationship with someone who lied from day one, I don’t think I want to repeat that again.

Tonight is laser night and I nearly forgot about it. I no longer get nervous about having it done, just nervous driving back after it’s been done.

Possible new guy on the horizon. He likes classic cars, hairy women and BBWs …. though with my luck, he’s married or involved … I’ll know more later on. (Edit: he’s married. Buh bye)

Not many classic car sightings other than a 1969 Firebird for sale for $27,900 near me, a few 1940’s trucks and another 1955 Chevy. I saw a Model T in a parking lot at the local supermarket which was totally restored and a gorgeous older vehicle. I need to step up my search for my older pickup truck.

American Idol raised more than 30 MILLION DOLLARS last night for famine relief in Africa, homelessness in New Orleans, and more. Amazing how much money was donated. The show was good with Earth Wind and Fire, though nothing was sadder than the bass player with his waist-length hair but nearly totally bald on top. Seeing Jeff Beck rocked me!

It certainly didn’t end as I planned. I didn’t quite finish up a website I was working on, but hopefully will do so tomorrow. Someone I thought I’d hear from didn’t email me, so I think like before, he’s going to blow me off. If so, this time I’ll learn and not respond next time. Someone else I was chatting with has blown me off for his ex-wife whom he is grossly hung up on … but the young twit didn’t respond to me after I emailed and told him yes, you are a dick.

Watching a TV show now about overweight people and the smallest woman is 370 lbs and I’m positively tiny next to her. What hurt was the 1,200 lb. man who had a girlfriend.

Got a new CD changer but the instruction book didn’t come along so I haven’t a clue how to use it, so will go back to the place I purchased it tomorrow for a quickie lesson.

Saw an ex-boyfriend’s photo on a dating site and was surprised, though it has been a long time since I’ve seen him. Saw a friend of mine on MySpace and it was funny since he listed himself as 10 years younger than he is. Sure, he looks 10 years younger, but so do I and I never lie about my age!

Dad is still in the hospital, 11 units of blood in him so far with no improvement.

I find that I have such different levels of attraction to the opposite sex. Physically I’m attracted to one type, and emotionally to another.

Physically, I notice guys 24-30, goatees and mustache, dark hair, jeans and a baseball cap. I don’t know why but there is something incredibly attractive about that look to me. Yep, it turns me on.

Emotionally, I am attracted to older men with looks not mattering at all, but their mind and “been there done that” attitude.

So, where does that leave guys 30-45? Heh. I guess it all depends on the person, but there isn’t such a strong physical attraction but it can be strong once I get to know them.

I spoke to a guy this week who was all of 23 and you can tell he’s full of himself. Thinks he has the Dick Of Death (I’ve seen a photo; he doesn’t), thinks he’s all that and a big bag of chips. He’s really sexy but he’s not Brad Pitt. He tells me this week I need to shave my underarms, bush and legs because HE does not like it. The chances of he and I meeting are zero to none and the chances of he and I hooking up are even less, yet he feels the need at all of 23 to tell me to change my entire being. Goes on about how men are, blah blah blah. Yeah, he can speak for HIS friends at HIS age, but not all men.

On the other age of the spectrum I spoke to someone age 23 who was totally opposite. He was very respectful of women, something the other definitely isn’t. Told me he’d love me just as I am and, “and again any man would be lucky to call you his companion.” His mother obviously raised him right. He isn’t so shallow that he’d let something like a tuft of underarm hair turn him away from someone of the opposite sex.

Recently I spoke to a man who lives within an hour of me and is a bit older than me. We share a love of classic cars which is attractive in itself. I’ve never seen his photo (face or body parts) and it won’t matter, as the person turns me on. It’s his mind. Older men, for the most part, think quite different when it comes to sex. Young guys want to fuck and brag about it. Older men want to make love and please you.

As my older friend said, your pleasure is my limit. As my younger friend said, I want to fuck you and cum.

Now, which is more attractive?