Well, it’s been a week now since Ron has contacted me, technically. He did call Sunday morning but I was sleeping, since I try to sleep in on Sunday mornings and he goes to work early and I guess he forget there is a 2-hour time difference. No message. No emails. I felt he was pulling away last week and now the lack of contact speaks volumes. I haven’t been asking myself what I did or said wrong, because I know I did nothing or said nothing wrong. I know I told him I didn’t have hairy legs, but he also told me that even if I weren’t hairy he’d still want to get to know me. It could be that he likes a woman with a lot of “junk in her trunk” and I don’t!! I don’t know, I just know I can’t be neglected like this. If a guy can’t literally take 5 minutes to click “email” in MySpace and say “hi, I’m busy, but thinking of you” — when he logs into MySpace each day — well, I deserve a lot better.

Chris and I chatted a little and he disappeared, too. Maybe I have bad breath?

Let’s see, I redid the Hairy Video Blog and totally removed the old models and put up new models at Miss Hairy USA and I chose full body shots for the new model pics and not face pics.

Been too hot to take out the Firebird though I want to get my tach fixed as I think it blew a fuse. A friend had wired it for me last year and I was going to email him last night to fix it, but instead he emailed ME to tell me he was suicidal as his girlfriend changed the locks and went back with her ex boyfriend. I was surprised he was with her, since he doesn’t like fat women and she’s fat, he doesn’t like young girls and she’s 20, he doesn’t like cats and she has them, he hates kids and she has 2, 5 and a baby. So, guess I’ll bring it in next week when it’s cooler.

Meanwhile, my car coming out of restoration is at the exhaust shop, having a custom exhaust done. It’s out-of-town but this guy is known for doing classic car exhausts and he’s fussy like a girl!! So “hopefully” next week I’ll have it back, totally done, and will have pics.

HA! It was hot as hell today? I thought of you, Stephanie, because it was just damned hot today. I went out tonight in the ‘bird and it wasn’t even cool. Bought a new GPS then came home where it was cool.

Updated the Hairy Video Blog with new links and will be adding new free movies every few days. I plan a slight design change, too.

No word from my guy for a few days now, not sure what’s going on. Did hear from a new guy but he’s only looking for friends as he’s into older cars, and I’m fine with that as long as he knows it’s friends only. No word from Bruno — big surprise there. I think for him it’s the thrill of the chase. We chat, he pretends interest, then disappears for a while. It’s ok as I’m really not interested in a guy who just wants to get laid for the short-term. I’m playing for long-term only.

Don’t forget the big big sale at Hairy Videos & DVD Shopping. I’m selling out of a lot of titles so you’d better hurry if you want something. Most hairy women videos and hairy women DVDs are half price or less!

Damn, it is HOT. Dew point is around 72 and 75 is about the highest it goes. Yesterday I spent 2 hours at the garage while they put in a new speedometer cable and they only have a tiny fan there. I was drenched in sweat when I left and could not wait to get home into a shower!

But oh my, the guy working on my car, wow. About 23 or 24, very dark and thick hair and thick, thick mustache, lots of chin hair, but the best part was he kept working on my car when it was on the lift, and kept raising up his arms so I could see his pit hair. You guys aren’t the only ones who drool over a hairy pit! He had a beautiful smile, too. Just a perk of having an old car!

Haven’t really heard from my guy and it’s pretty frustrating. I know he’s busy as he works full time and has a full time hobby, but I need some attention. “ima be all ova u” hasn’t messaged me and I’m glad, and not surprised. I almost think it’s a game to him, he talks to a woman and says he’s interested, then disappears.

I did hear from my gangsta guy, and he asked why I was mad at him, and I told him he gave me a really shitty attitude last time we talked and I don’t need it or want it. He didn’t want to see the log of what he said and did apologize a few times. That was nice, but he’s like the other one, they want short term and my guy is in it for the long term from what I can see … though not hearing from him is just aggravating. How can you get to know someone if they don’t email?

I really hate holidays and have such a hard time with them. Oh, I had fun yesterday but came home and something happened that really threw me and has me pretty weepy. It’s a culmination of a few bad weeks, I think. I clicked the wrong icon on another computer and AIM opened up. Been avoiding AIM so I don’t end up talking to gangsta boy. When I looked over, I saw a message from “ima be all ova u”. Feeling alone, I decided to talk to him. It’s not like my guy has been paying me much attention, and anyone who knows me knows I need a lot of attention from a guy. We did the normal chit chat, then he asked about my love life,and I told him I hadn’t met anyone but was just talking to someone who lived very far away. At that point I probably should have just clicked out but again, needing to feel needed but was feeling neglected, so decided to chat with him.

He really does like hairy women, and he isn’t asking for pics which just really makes me lose interest, and he’s very close, but he’s also very young, very immature, and I know he only wants one thing. I did ask him if he really liked fat women and he said “i like all women” and then told me their size didn’t matter. DANGER ZONE. That is man speak for “I’ll fuck anything that breathes and has a vagina.” No thank you. I’d rather be alone and do myself than be with someone like that.

My guy says he really does love bigger women plus loves hairy women, and is so much more mature and much brighter, but that distance thing is a real issue as is the lack of attention and contact. I want someone who loves my body and shows it, not someone who will tolerate it.

So, I had trouble falling asleep, though had taken a pill as I haven’t slept well in a long time, plus had the stiff neck from hell. Woke up a few times but kept rolling over and going back to sleep … looked at the clock and it was 9:40!! I haven’t slept that late in years! Now I’m scrambling to catch up on my websites, then have some paperwork to do, then some stuff around the house. With the rain I won’t be cruising, could not even take the Firebird with us yesterday as I knew it was going to rain, and it did.

I think I’ve done enough on Hairy Video Reviews to announce it here, though am adding a bit more onto it later. I’m thinking I’ll have the bisexual site done by tonight if I don’t take a nap lol. I’m still tired but am feeling, I don’t know … unsettled … maybe too much on my mind.

Well, sorta kinda … have no car to cruise in at night. The other day the Firebird gave me issues with starting, then made this horrible grinding noise coming from the cowl area. I boosted it and it was fine but then it died once again with that horrid grinding. Bought a new high torque starter as well as an Optima battery. With the cam and increased timing, I don’t think my battery has enough power. So tomorrow I’ll have her towed and fixed. I think the Bendix may have a bent tooth but that’s a simple fix. The starter is HEAVY!

But it’s been so nice at night and I can’t cruise

Did take out my daily driver to look at the water, as we are having abnormally high tides. The boat launch was underwater last night and I watched one couple come close, then realize they simply could not bring their boat in since you have to back your vehicle with trailer down a 100 foot ramp that was underwater. Tomorrow if I have the Firebird back I’ll go out plus will take pics.

Got to talk to my guy the other day but I do miss his emails … I feel like we’re drifting apart or something. He’s a phone/text kinda guy, and I’m an email kinda gal. My words flow much easier when I can sit down and type and I can talk to him that way and ask about him and learn about him. I hate texting as those keys are tiny and you can’t just use 2 hands and type quickly. Phone is ok though mine runs out of battery quickly and gets REALLY hot after a few minutes. It’s time for a new one, I know … I’ll search one of these days. But he has mentioned visiting me on vacation which kicked up all my insecurities! I guess a big part of me just can’t see why this amazing guy would want ME other than the hair, and a big part of me feels the opposite, that he’s damned lucky to have me.

Car that’s in restoration is THISCLOSE to being done. I thought it would go for the exhaust this week and it still might, but it needed a proportioning valve yesterday when the brakes failed. Theoretically that was done today along with some last-minute wiring, but I’ll call tomorrow and see. I know it’s within days of having the exhaust which is the last step, then it goes to my Firebird mechanic for less than a week for all the cosmetic stuff (dash components, rocker panels, etc). I’m pretty excited.

This weekend I’m going to a huge car show with my car show friend. He called me to remind me of a show Friday night which I’d forgotten about, then asked if I wanted to go Saturday or Sunday to the big show. Another friend is going on Sunday (the guy with the DeLorean) so I’m not quite sure yet.

Still updating sites and should have one or two finished before the holiday. I’m very close on the hairy video site … just need to tweak it some more

I know we women tend to talk to our hairdressers about everything going on in our lives, especially our sex lives. Do y’all talk to the guys and women who do your hair, too?

My hairdresser and I always talk about our love lives. This week she asked if I was seeing anyone new, and I mentioned that I was “talking” to someone. So, she asked where I met him and I said “online” and then I got that look. You know the one, like he’s a mass murderer/rapist trolling the Internet for his next victim. Man, people not online just don’t get it, do they?

I talked to him just a few minutes ago when he called. He’s never able to get me and he was so surprised I answered he was speechless for a bit! He always makes me laugh and smile, and I gotta tell you, he’s making me feel sexy, something I never, ever feel.

It’s not perfect as he’s not local, and at times I wish I were younger and prettier and stuff like that. I’m so jaded about romance and am trying to keep really positive.

Oh yeah, he has a cat. Eddie, STOP laughing! I can hear the “ha ha” in my ear!!

Shrek is on so, of course, I’m watching it. The story of the ugly woman who finds a man who sees the beauty within always makes me cry, and it’s one of my favorite movies.

Putting up a new website (sorry, Summer) in the bisexual niche. It was a split-second decision to buy the domain (it was expensive, too) and develop it, but I won’t regret it. Still updating a hairy site and hope to have it done by tomorrow.

I’m thinking of you, Stephanie — knowing you must be suffering with just a window fan

Updated this site as you can see on the sidebar, a tremendous amount of work but it’s done. It was so much work I added it to the Hair To Stay website too! But now there are 3,000 new free photos available to you hairy women lovers!!

Got my obscure auto part, a floor shifter column and it’s in great shape. The only bad thing was the turn signal lever was pitted and rusty but mine is in great shape so I won’t need to have it rechromed. Got a gorgeous dash gauge cluster that had been rechromed, too. Should have the car back in a week …. fingers crossed please!

Don’t forget the huge sale going on at Hairy Videos right now. All videos and DVDs are on sale and most are half price OR LESS!!!!

Things are still going well with me and the new guy but it’s frustrating that he isn’t closer.

Huge storm last night, an hour of rain with thunder and lightning. Hard to sleep I tell ya!

Right now the move, To Be Fat Like Me, is on. I’ve seen it twice and I just hate it, but have to watch it. It’s about a girl who decides to dress in a fat suit to see how the other half lives, and is gee, surprised that people make fun of her, laugh at her, treat her like shit, etc. Why don’t they believe a fat chick who says life is like this? Why must they make a mockery of it and dress people as fat to prove a point?

Still chatting with my guy who surprisingly seems really interested in me. He makes me laugh and makes me smile, and that’s so important. He doesn’t live close to me and that’s something that really bothers me but I’m not going to let it get in the way. Things happen for a reason.

It was chilly today, probably all of 58 or so, and I was loving it. Had the windows open and enjoyed the breeze. Didn’t sleep well last night at all, yeah, I know, it’s happening every night now … so went to take a nap today but just could not fall asleep. Guess I have a lot of my mind.

Things with the new guy are going well. He did something that really made me feel good and that was signing up to support one of my sites. The Hairy Chat Forum is a great site, but when he signed up, it just made me all mushy inside to see how he supports what I do.

He did call and I missed the call — sound familiar, Eddie? LOL. Speaking of which, please call me Eddie so I can hear how you’re settling in with the move and all.

Dad is doing better and I believe going home tomorrow or the next day.

Still dealing with my car coming out of restoration. One guy has been incredibly helpful to me, helping me locate parts or telling me which parts to buy. Other than some headliner clips, I’m all set for now.

Began badly when someone said something that just pissed me off! Told me I should be looking for a man “in real life” or words to that effect instead of using the Internet. Now, my hirsute ladies who read this will fully understand why “we” do this online and not in person, right? Man, I HATE when people try to tell me how to run my life. Let them live in my shoes for a week and then we’ll see. Everyone always thinks they know what’s best for you without really knowing you, ya know?

Then I was stressed over my car(s) and ran into someone who offered me a ride so I could take a weekend vacation and I jumped at the chance. Ran home, grabbed the laptop so I could work (but not upload, insecure server and all) but then mom called and dad was at the ER — again. He’s been admitted but I’m not sure how long he’ll be there. He was doing really well but this time it’s symptoms from his advanced COPD, and I have a feeling since it’s not heart-related they’ll send him home after a few days.

Now I’m home and chilling. Got stuff to do at home this weekend anyway so it’s not a “bad” thing, but I’ll go away in a few weeks, probably after the car is done.

Did hear from my guy and he gave me the greatest compliment, basically saying even if I removed all the hair he’s still want to get to know me as he thinks — well, this or that — but you get the gist. You ladies know what I mean, right? It just makes you melt to hear that. But, I’m keeping it real, not getting overly attached yet, not falling hard or anything, just enjoying getting to know him. As I said to someone earlier today, it’s nice to have someone making me feel good like this.

Was about to write a post on the coffee blog and I forgot I had upgraded and panicked, thinking my site had been hacked! Too many sites but Summer should be proud of me — no new sites for what, 2 months now?

The humidity finally broke and today it was just nice, warm and sunny without that awful sweat-producing humidity.

Feeling really REALLY good as I’m getting to know this amazing guy. He sees me as a woman with hair, not a hairy woman and that makes all the difference.

He’s funny, intelligent, well-spoken, not a pig and we share a love of classic cars, music and Chinese food!

Right now he’s living far away but soon he’ll be a lot closer, so we’ll see what happens. Right now he’s just making me smile — a lot.

98 degrees today. I had to drive my Firebird back from the body shop today and even on the highway I was a pile of sweat. The humidity was just disgusting. I put it in the garage, drove home, and literally was in the shower in 10 minutes. It was too hot to even take pics of what they did. They did pull me in this morning to talk about my restoration but at 9 am it wasn’t too hot yet.

Chatting with someone new the past few days and it’s so refreshing to talk to someone who doesn’t ask about the hair — at least not yet — and my instinct is he won’t. He asks about me — my favorite movies, color, music, etc. We chat about a lot of things and he’s intelligent and fascinating to talk to. Younger than I am, of course, and not local, but he did ask if I was open to a long-distance relationship and with him — definitely.

So, we’ll see … he did ask about being hirsute and I was pretty open and honest about it. You never know how someone will deal with all that pain when they hear about it.

New review on Hairy Website Reviews posted last night and I’ll be posting another within the hour

Nearly 100 degrees today with a heat index near 100. They said IF we get heat like this, it usually isn’t until August and sometimes it never gets this bad. It was just horrendous. I went out to the post office and grocery store and the heat coming up from the tar in the parking lots was stifling. I had the a/c on in the car but still, it was a long hot walk into the buildings. I came home and had lunch where it was nice and cool, but then ran out for one errand and could not wait to get home. I felt so sticky from the humidity I took another shower. I got out of the shower this morning at 8 am and it was already 82 degrees to show you how bad it was.

Tomorrow I have to go bring my Firebird in for some work and while it won’t be too bad in the morning, in the afternoon it will be extremely hot, plus the garage has no a/c or windows. I plan to get in and get out fast and drive home on the highway so I’ll at least get a little breeze.

I don’t know how people can live with this heat and humidity all year round! Give me snow!!

Heard from my hair-obsessed friend but he pulled an attitude with me and I signed off and don’t plan to go back on IM for a long, long time. He was drinking so I assume that caused it. But I just don’t want to deal with a guy who is obsessed over the hair.

Working on updating some hairy sites tonight and will talk about them when done and publish a few pics here as well.

Last night I went on IM to find a local friend and ask him a question. I rarely get on IM because of the HNGs that hit me up. Well, my friend wasn’t around, but Chris was … the one who was asking about the hair only and never about me. Been about 3 weeks I think since it ended. I was surprised to hear from him as he wasn’t even on my buddies list. But, we did a little normal chatting — “hi, how are you?” type stuff.

He then said he missed me. I reminded him of why it ended and he did apologize and later said he felt like a jerk over it. Good. Then he told me he was still interested in me and I was leery and should have gone with my instincts.

I was gone for a minute so he asked if I were busy and I said I was checking website stats, so he asked what that was, saying he wanted to know all about me and my job (previously he’d never, ever asked). So, I told him about Hairy Chat without mentioning the URL, just what it was about, and how good I felt when I could help women, and he asked for more info, and I gave it to him. I mentioned men who were finally able to discuss their feelings about hairy women and feel normal.

He then said, “I wuvvv you.” *shudder*

I then said I had men who loved women from those with full beards to those with full bushes. He said he didn’t like women with beards, so with trepidation I mentioned that many women had facial hair. He basically said that kind of woman wasn’t for him.

*bzzzzt* wrong answer.

I can’t fault him for this, it’s personal choice. I won’t say he’s shallow. Some men like facial hair and some don’t. Some women like men with facial hair, or who are going bald, and some don’t. It’s just personal preference, as I said.

So … I said, “I have some and am used to being rejected over it, so have a nice day” and just signed off and that was it. I didn’t go into my laser treatments, I just didn’t feel like justifying my life to him to try to gain acceptance, ya know?

He’s not into it. I’m not going to try to change his mind as it’s not worth the heartache. I should have gone with my instincts and just ignored his IM. It bummed me out a little but I think at this point I’m just so used to it, it’s not phasing me much anymore.

I’m just so ambivalent toward men lately.

I’m noticing I nap more lately, but it could be over my not sleeping well at night. I used to nap for 1.5 hours, no matter what, it was always an hour and a half. A few weeks ago it was 2.5 hours, then 3.5 hours! Today I’d say I slept for about 3 hours. I’m not sure if it’s lack of sleep at night or just my being so old. And I’m not groggy when I get up after sleeping so long! I could have slept longer, but I fell asleep before putting on the central a/c and it was getting warm. We’re in the middle of a very hot spell.

I did find the obscure auto part I needed, just have to wait for someone to ship it to me. Now I’m after not-so obscure parts that are mostly cosmetic. My ‘bird goes in this week to have the new gears put in plus they are doing a little work elsewhere. I won’t miss her, though, since it will be close to 90 and on days like that I’m home working and not out in the humidity and heat. I need to get into my closet later tonight or tomorrow and pull out m summer shirts and my shorts. Summer sure crept up on us fast.

I’ve been chatting with this guy from Florida. No, he’s not into hairy women. Well, more on that later. I met him as I was looking for an obscure car part and he thought he could help me. We are also going to do some swapping, like my clutch pedal for his brake/gas pedal. We chat about all kind of stuff, including my work, and he did mention he liked women with hairy pits. We talked a little about sex, too.

He keeps asking for my pic, and I keep telling him I don’t have pics. It gets frustrating after a while, since I simply don’t take pics. I know people talk shit about me for not having pics, but it’s my choice and my life. Anyway, he’s pushing hard for pics and I’m getting frustrated that I have to keep addressing the issue. He’s also hinting about something happening between us, but he’s 1,500 miles from me, with a wife … it’s like he’ll make a great friend as we can talk about anything, but anything more …. nuh uh.

So, dealing with the car coming out of restoration is taking a little time, but work is keeping me busy as well. No major projects. There are some I should be doing but I just haven’t felt like it. I’m sure I’ll get back to it soon.

I know, it sounds weird, but I did! I was reading a forum and people were complaining about those with loud stereo systems and how they make your windows rattle from the ‘doof doof’ sound they make. Then people were speculating on costs to install those systems.

Wham! I remembered meeting a guy with an old pickup truck, rusty, about 15 years ago, and he showed me his stereo system that was a computer system wired to the back of the front seat. I remember him saying he spent $15k on it for an old truck! He pulled the seat back forward to show me all the wiring, I do remember that much.

I “think” his name was Scott but I don’t remember where we connected. I don’t know if it was through Hair to Stay Magazine, IRC, my sites or my personal ad. I just remember he drove down from Maine (3/4 hours) and we met at the airport. I don’t remember eating any food with him, but we went parking for a bit. He was younger than me by a bit, he was blonde with a beard, and he said despite the drive he wanted to date me, but I said no due to the distance. Wow.

I wish I remember more and I don’t even know why I supressed the memory for about 15 years.

Well, the guy who was interested is history, and I’m not broken up over it. He asked if I was still interested and, since I don’t lie, told him I lost a lot of interest when he asked for pics that resembled my hairiness, plus he only asked about the hair and sex — never anything else. I’m much more than hair. So, he wrote back, said he was sorry and wished me good luck.

It’s his loss.

Got laser tonight which I nearly forgot about but fortunately they called to remind me. I believe I last went in December so it’s been a while, but I don’t really need it other than one small spot. I’m looking forward to having it done!

In case he reads it, THANK YOU to the man who called to place an order today and told me the Hairy Videos site still had issues. If he had not told me, it would still be fubar

*sigh* When a guy seems interested in you, it’s a great thing. However, when he says, “send me a pic of what your hair looks like, even if it’s not you” then I lose interest very quickly, and this happened overnight. Woke up to the email asking for pics that represent my hair in a certain place.

To me that means the hair matters too much.

Ask about my life, my family, my upbringing, my cars, my job — find out about ME, not some superfluous hair.

Gotta love ‘em. Or kill ‘em.

One just won’t take no for an answer. I suppose it’s my fault for not ignoring his emails. We met 3 years ago and he was a nice guy, good looking, but not my type as he’s married and cheats. He treated me like shit that day, too, and I never forgot it, or forgave him. He didn’t contact me for a long time but as I’ve written before, he keeps inviting me for ‘coffee’. I asked what he expected and yah, he said sex, so I said no. He asked again and I said no. And, he asked this week and I said no. I don’t know why he keeps asking because he needs to know I’m not going to change my mind.

We do have a love of classic cars in common but don’t even talk about that much. He insists when he met me I had a tattoo, and I don’t, so I don’t even think he remembers me. Claims I’m “cute and chubby” and I’m neither.

Then there is this other one who could be the guy of my dreams, the one I talked about yesterday. Now he’s fixated on the hair after not asking about it for a while. Hair anywhere seems to be ok with him and he’s not asking for pics which is a good thing, but … I don’t know … he’s 6 hours away and I think he wants a fuck buddy and that’s it. I did tell him I don’t do casual and he said he was “tired” of casual, but he also pretty much stopped emailing after that, too.

I also need a communicator. I tend to lose interest rapidly when I get a 1/2 sentence email repeatedly, or they don’t answer questions I pose.

His being a hair lover is a great thing, but I do have some trepidation as he’s not been with a very hairy woman, and I know first-hand that often they have the fantasy but the reality does not live up and they say they’ve “experienced it” and move on

Yes, someone actually said that to me in an email today. My response? “Get a lobotomy and I’ll meet you”!

Now, I know it’s just hair, and it does not define who I am, so I shouldn’t care, right? But I like the hair under my arms and can’t see any reason to remove it. No, not even for a guy … I figure the right guy will accept me as I am and not ask me to change, and I refuse to do so.

Got a couple of guys I’m chatting with but no one really makes my heart trip a beat or two yet. One is on one of those dating sites you have to join to contact and otherwise you can just smile at each other, which we’ve done 10 times! I’m just not in the mind set to meet someone, and I’m not quite sure what’s going on. I don’t know if I’ve lost my confidence again, or no one is interesting me, or my mind is elsewhere, but I’m just “not into” meeting anyone right now.

Saved $300 today on my daily driver car insurance. Massachusetts has always regulated car insurance. This means we can’t shop for a better rate. Our insurance commissioner would set the rate and everyone had to pay it, period. This year they finally deregulated it and I called my regular insurance company after I got the bill and said I wanted a lower rate. They looked around and found another company offering the same coverage for $300 less. Amazing, huh? Of course, I pay less for 4 classics combined than I do for my daily driver, and I plan to get rid of that in a few weeks and get another pickup truck.

This has been an interesting few days. Yesterday I read about a Word Press exploit (this site runs Word Press) and sure enough, it got me. I managed to delete all the exploited files, fix the database, and there really was no damage fortunately. It was more of a pain in the ass than anything. I managed to ban the prejudiced moron who kept trying to post, too.

I put up a new poll and will give it a few more weeks and then we’ll see how things change. I did get quite a few requests to go back to posting about my life as well as adding in some more free pics, so will incorporate both soon, I promise.

Been pretty busy lately. Got the Firebird totally squared away and fixed the starting issue by myself I believe … don’t ask. But I learned quite a bit in the process so it was worth the money it cost to fix things that weren’t broken in the first place. Won’t be driving her for a few days as the weather is about to turn bad after 9 days of 60+ degree days including 2 days over 75. I have actually shut my heat off for the season (2 days after getting the $730 heating bill, of course) but today it was chilly so I put it back on and grabbed the blankets I hadn’t been using. Took a nap this afternoon for 90 minutes, woke up, then went back to sleep for another hour. Guess I needed the rest.

Have laser this week as it was canceled for last week. Haven’t gone since what, December? I really only have one trouble area and one small spot that needs work so I don’t really have to go but will. I think from here on out it will be every 4-6 months.

Not much new on the male front. I’m just not into dating anyone right now, as odd as it sounds. I had lunch and dinner with my car friend but only as friends. Had a couple of guys interested but for some reason I’m just not that interested. Maybe they just aren’t the right guys, ya know?

I’ve been working on all my sites and have updated Hair to Stay, Frisky Blogs, Hairy Pictures, Hairy Website Reviews as well as many others. Haven’t put up any new sites in a while, just updating older ones.

I’ve been watching American Idol while I work but don’t go into the living room to watch it, so am not into it as much as in past years. I don’t know why Brooke is still in the competition and hope she’s voted off soon. Just 4 weeks left of American Idol and then So You Think You Can Dance begins a new season. That’s one you have to watch and can’t just listen to like American Idol!

It was a total shock and I wasn’t even aware it was him. I was visiting my dad in the hospital (he’ll be there at least another week) and went to sit in the visitor’s room for a break. Mom came in and we chatted a little bit and were about to go back when a man came in and mom looked at him (I didn’t even look other than to see it was a male) and called him by name. I realized who it was when she said his name but he certainly changed. I hadn’t seen him in about 15 or so years and then it was a brief “hello” and that was it.

We sat and chatted for a good 20 minutes or so. He’s got 4 kids by 4 different women, all from when he was in his late teens. That shocked me!

It brought back a lot of memories and I was trying to remember how old I was when we began to hang out, and I guess around 14/15 as I know when we did hang out, I wasn’t worried about being hairy. It was in 8th grade and I know during that year was my hirsute discovery. I kinda remember losing touch with him after that, though he lived 3 houses from me, but he went to a different high school and we just never saw each other after that for some odd reason.

Thinking back I have to laugh as the most exciting thing we ever did was hold hands — twice. Times were different then.

Sometimes I wish I had been a slut. Huh? Well, not quite, but I sometimes wish I had been more adventurous in life. Even now I kick myself for not having sex with Chuck, or another guy I met last summer. Part of me is glad and part of me isn’t, but Chuck was the first guy to turn me on like that in about 10 years or more.

There are so many guys I could ‘be’ with but part of me holds back due to the hair, whether it’s too much or now I’m lacking due to losing so much of it. I’ve been made to feel like much less of a person due to losing so much hair — and yeah — by many of you guys reading this, but I had to do what made me happy. It’s so odd how something that I hated my whole life, that everyone said was disgusting, now is something I somewhat wish I hadn’t changed.

Speaking of hair, aren’t I due for laser soon? I haven’t gone since December and other than 2 spots, I don’t even need it. I’d say at this point 90% of the hair is permanently gone and 9% still comes back in very very fine, and 1% makes up those 2 trouble spots.

Watching American Idol now and last night both David Cook and Michael Johns blew me away. None of the women impress me at all. In 45 minutes we’ll know who gets voted off but I figure it will be the Carly Simon lookalike or the other blonde.

I find that my sexuality is still evolving. I’m realizing that what I was attracted to a few years ago, hell, even a few months ago, isn’t what I’m attracted to today. As I told Eddie earlier, I’m just fussier and fussier each day. And I’m finding new things that turn me on and things that used to don’t excite me as much any more.

I heard from a guy yesterday who clearly states in his personal ad he likes hairy women, especially hairy pits. Guess I’m not that desperate because I blew him off. Why? He’s just looking to get laid. Hell, I could get that any time I wanted it. John is drooling to get into my pants as are a few others. My little fireman is always available. I’m just looking for something very, very different at this stage of life.

I’m not going to settle for less than I deserve, and I guess I’m looking for that instant attraction that I felt with Chuck. I still can remember, 6 months later, sitting in Dunkin Donuts and squirming because I was so turned on from him merely holding my hands and rubbing my fingers. I’d never, ever felt that way before. He definitely struck a chord in me that no one had ever reached.

Right now I’m really busy with work and thinking about getting my cars on the road. Going to visit the Firebird this week but I think it’s going in for the exhaust pipe, and I want to call about my other car. I know that it’s 96% done and I want it back before April 1st or it goes to another garage.

Saw a few awesome cars on Friday and wished I had a classic to drive around. Saw 2 Novas, both 1969 I think, one orange and black and the other solid blue. Saw a few other 40’s cars as well.

Got Hair To Stay updated on Friday and also updated Hairy Pictures with lots of new links. Got my newest site done but have more work to do on it later tonight. No, it’s not porn or adult but is something I can update once in a while. This was the idea I got from the phone call while my car was being serviced!

Have about 45 sites to update, a huge project I’m going to begin tomorrow. The sites are up, just redoing them, and will mention it here when done.

Busily as always. Yesterday I finished up and launched my new babe blog, Unzipped Blog. I LOVE the design and the layout and am 100% pleased with how it came out. There are a few images of hairy women there and I’ll be adding more soon.

Watched American Idol this week and have to say I wasn’t very surprised at who was voted off and who the top 12 are … though I wish Danny Noriega would have remained as he’s so campy and queeny it would have been fun to watch him each week. My money is still on David Archuletta and Amanda Overmyer as the final 2.

Feeling very domestic today and have already cleaned out a cabinet and a closet and have a huge bag of garbage. Lately I just toss and toss and toss. I think I want to clean out a few kitchen drawers later on.

Yesterday afternoon there was NOTHING on television - not even on the Food Network. For some reason it hit me out of the blue — this new TV has a built-in DVD player. Duh. So I threw in a DVD and now will be able to listen to some of my favorite movies I’ve seen 2000 times again. Yeah, Shrek will be in there later as well

Has anyone used the Perfect Pod Maker? If so, please tell me your experience with it before I drive out of town to buy one tomorrow

Cold but no wind so it’s not as bad as the 50 mph winds of yesterday.

Eddie — he’s having a pacemaker put in tomorrow, he’s severely altered right now. You’ll know what I mean.

Heard from my guy about the Firebird. All is good and I’m going tomorrow to take pics as the engine is going back in on Friday. It was in better shape than I thought, though had been rebuilt 22k miles ago. Didn’t even need a new timing chain! The only part I need is a chrome thermostat housing.

Had my eyes dilated today and it’s very hard to type at the computer since the screen is so bright, even with sunglasses on. Some guy tried to talk to me and I could not see very clearly and didn’t think he was flirting with ME so I sort of mumbled at him, but apparently he looked at me on his way back so thoroughly that my mother mentioned he was interested LOL. I just wish I could have seen better.

Big update going on tonight at Hairy Chat and once all is configured, tested and working, I’l make an announcement here about it.

I’ll be opening another blog for my day-to-day personal stuff rather than posting it here. Have to get the design going before I can tell y’all where it will be.

I hope to catch up on sleep this weekend! I also have a lot of “house stuff” to do. I had ordered the Handy Switch — have you see the commercial on TV? It’s like The Clapper but instead of having to clap you use a switch you place wherever you want. While I’ve had The Clapper for 15+ years and love it, it’s VERY sensitive and sometimes during the night I wake up to my bedroom night lamp being on and it makes me wonder what noise made it come on. Or, on the rare occasion I’m in my living room watching TV the light goes on and off depending on the volume. And don’t even ask what it’s like when my housekeeper vacuums! But anyway, they claim the Handy Switch isn’t available in stores, so I ordered 5 online for a total of $120 with expedited shipping, 6 weeks ago. Called Tuesday and they said they were still on backorder. Today I saw them at Target for $15 each. Grabbed 5 and cancelled the online order. I already put one in my bedroom and so far I love it.

I have to install a new phone, install the rest of the switches, plus I’m having some furniture moved and need to measure and be sure it will all fit. I also bought a wallpaper border for my office and need to move a few things around before my handyman comes in next week.

Speaking of which, he came in the other day to put up a shelf over my new TV in my bedroom. He asked why I didn’t just mount it on the wall, and I told him I figured it would break the wall since my walls are old horsehair plaster. He said nope, get the bracket into a stud and you’re all set. Has anyone else mounted a flat-screen TV on a wall? I bought the bracket that tilts, it’s a heavy sucker! So next week will be busy with him here, moving furniture, then putting up more shelves in my Red Sox/memorabilia room. I bought a LOT of new Red Sox World Series stuff recently, since it was half price after the season ended. I don’t know which is my favorite, the Red Sox slippers, baseball clock or bobbleheads. I should take pics. I need to start looking for Firebird memorabilia I guess.

Speaking of which, my plumber was in and he asked how my “red car” was. I told him it was still being redone but mentioned I bought the Firebird, then showed him a picture of it on another computer. You forget how much guys are into cars. He checked it out, noticed the red lines right away, then commented on my rims (trim rings) being original. I never even notice stuff like that. Like the Crager wheels on my other car, who looks at wheels?! He even mentioned the color of the interior! I never knew he was so into cars. And no, he’s married.

I’m not bummed out about no romance between me and the new guy. A big part of me is glad I don’t have to deal with telling him about the body hair. And it wasn’t just his kids, he has cats, and anyone who knows me knows I despise men who have cats and hate cats themself. Sorry, I’m a dog person. Give me a guy who can appreciate the soft fur of a Golden Retriever anyday.

John is STILL emailing me. Now he’s on a “too much work and no play” kick but I just don’t want to play with him. If you ladies saw him, you’d kick ME. He’s really very, very good looking. But, hurt me once and that’s your only shot. And I’m really tired of his “you’re a good kisser” bullshit when we didn’t kiss much.

Let’s see. Yep, met my new friend for coffee and had a lot of fun. He’s definitely interested in more but I’m not. (Jaws dropping, right?) He’s a nice guy but has kids, and he’s VERY involved with his kids who are in junior high. They are the central focus of his life. That’s just not for me. We’ll definitely get together again and already talked about going to the major car shows this summer. We didn’t go visit the Firebird because it was raining really hard but hopefully one day soon when the weather clears up. We almost went to visit my other car being restored but I wanted to call and see what was going on. Suffice to say I called today and if the car isn’t done by the end of the month, I’m pulling it out of there and taking it to someone else to finish up.

I have to be honest in that I didn’t feel that “ohmy” I felt with Chuck. I’ve only felt that once in my life. He turned me on from the minute I met him, and he’s the only guy I ever kissed the first time we met — and he was a gentleman and asked first. 5-6 kisses later I was so glad I said yes.

Meanwhile, someone I met this summer has messaged me to ask to meet up again. I met him from MySpace, the same day I met another guy who turned out to be a really good friend. Since my profile is now private due to my online stalker, he couldn’t read my blogs there to see what was going on. But he did ask to meet up again. Sweet kid and I emphasize the kid part!

Went to get my hair cut today and my hairdresser and I had a nice chat about men. She met someone who she thinks would be a fuck buddy but so far they haven’t knocked boots. In some ways I want a fuck buddy but I know deep in my heart I can’t do it. I have to be “in love” to do certain things with a guy, which may sound odd … but your dick doesn’t go into my ass unless I’m in love. Wow, that was blunt lol. If I just wanted to get laid I have my choice of some prime guys, from John who still keeps emailing me (he had his chance, treated me badly, never again) to this new 25-year old local stud. I’m not cut out for a hit and run, or a married guy. Have many to choose from in that regard, too.

She and I both agree we don’t want to repeat our mistakes from past relationships, though she ended up with a daughter.

Now that I’m a year older, I’m even more fussy. It didn’t hit me until today how old I am, and I was staring in the mirror saying, “you don’t look 48.” I don’t, and I know it. My hairdresser said 35 and my handyman says 35, and my plumber today said 36. I KNOW I’m old, but I don’t feel it or act it. But I refuse to settle for less than I deserve and if it means being alone, so be it. If I ever lower my standards I have plenty to choose from.

Still updating websites, and just released the Hairy Black Women Blog about 10 minutes ago. I still have a little tweaking to do on it later tonight. Has anyone visited Hairy Website Reviews to check out the new script?

Got up during the night many times coughing but I do feel better. The day began with the dentist, then my housekeeper called to cancel today. But, the day ended well so I can’t complain too much. Hopefully I’ll sleep better tonight without all that coughing. I had to keep stopping my dental hygienist so I could cough.

Eddie, call me again dammit. I promise tomorrow to take my cell phone in and get a new battery as this one dies out much too quickly.

Updated a lot of sites this weekend, and relaunched Grape Sex as a social bookmark site. Give it a bit of time for more people to submit links. That domain has been several types of sites but social bookmark sites are big now so what the hell.

I am also proud to launch Frisky Blogs which will be updated every day or two with new blogs. These are very niche and fetish oriented with a lot of, well, weird odd fetishes, but there is interest out there for these things. But, they are “set it and forget it” sites so it’s not that much work.

BIG changes for Hairy Chat in the next week or two. I began tonight and will keep working on it but expect major changes. MAJOR.

Worked on my dining site this weekend with a whole new layout and design, and am expanding it from just reviews to local dining news as well. Also worked on Lingerie For Fat Chicks and it should be updated every single day from now on. There isn’t enough time in the day to update all these damned sites!

Well, my Patriots blew it in the 4th quarter. I can’t figure out why Brady rushed so much. If he’d taken his time more, the clock would have run out, but it’s easy to sit back as an armchair quarterback and second-guess the coach and plays. 18-1 is nothing to be ashamed of, but at least my Red Sox didn’t choke

Still nervous about meeting my friend on Wednesday. Not about meeting him but more about “what if he’s interested and I have to tell him about the hair” kinda stuff. I know you girls can relate to this.

Do I cancel my coffee date since I’m sick? Yes, it’s 3:33 am. I can’t sleep as my throat is bothering me. I got up at least 5 times during the night and finally gave up. I have 3 Ibuprofen sitting here but can’t take them on an empty stomach or they won’t work right, so I need to eat something.

It feels like something minor, not strep throat again or the flu. I rarely get sore throats like this but I’m only a little stuffy.

Probably will post about it tomorrow. It’s not done as it’s an ongoing project. Every day I’ll be adding to the list but that will make more sense once you see the site. I’ll tell you this much — one site I am working on is an EXPLICIT hairy lesbian site with photos so scorching, hot, clear and close-up you’ll need a towel to view them.

Met someone today at, of all places, an auto parts store. I needed to check the price on something so while I was out running errands ran into an auto parts store I’d only been to once before. While looking at the stuff there, someone asked if I needed help. I turned around to say no thanks and this tall, goateed guy was there. Yum yum. I told him what I was looking for and he asked what kind of car, and when I told him 1967 Firebird his eyes lit up and he asked me a million questions. I spent probably 25 minutes chatting to him about old cars but it seemed like 5 minutes. He was called to the front to help someone (turns out he’s the manager) and asked me to wait, and I did. When he came back he said he really loved talking to me and asked if we could talk again, maybe over coffee. I picked my jaw up off the floor, immediately thought I was dreaming, but said yes. So, Tuesday I have an afternoon coffee date.